Part One: Right View
When I first started
attending the Buddhist Temple of Chicago, I heard Rev. Gyomay Kubose
translating hongan as “the will to
live.” He gave the example of a plant that grows from a crack in the city sidewalk
as manifesting the strength of that will to live. Reading Shout of Buddha (trans. Saito and Sweany, Orchid Press, 1977), I
thought Akegarasu was also explaining hongan,
the Original Vow, as not only the will to live but my will to
live. In the piece “To Live,” I identified with Miss T who proclaims, “I just
want to live” despite all her sufferings, such as the loss of family members.
After Rev. Gyoko Saito
left the Chicago temple to take a post in Los Angeles, I went through a phase
of disillusionment with Buddhism and the teachings of Akegarasu, in particular.
What good was having a strong will to live when my life was continual
sufferings? All my intense listening to Rev. Kubose in Sunday services, the
meditation sessions and in personal consultations wasn’t helping to relieve my
sufferings and I decided I would quit the temple after it hosted the Eastern
Buddhist League conference.
But it was at that EBL
conference that I was led to Dr. Nobuo Haneda by Rev. Saito and his wife. In
Dr. Haneda’s weekly class at BTC I came to learn why he and Rev. Saito
translated hongan as “innermost
aspiration.” It is not my simple will to live, but it is a desire gushing up
from a deep, ancient consciousness shared with all beings, not confined by the
constricting walls of my ego.
During that time I
studied under Dr. Haneda, I realized I was reading Akegarasu wrong and that
realization was made more clear when I read him in Japanese during my studies
in Japan and later studying with Rev. Saito in Los Angeles.
In the piece “To
Live,” the person I should identify with is Akegarasu, the one who clearly
hears Miss T and respects her vibrant expression of being alive. I found this
was exemplified by Rev. Saito – in his talks and in his writings, he was always
the listener, the learner, the one who bows down to the lives he encounters. I
saw in him the embodiment of Namu Amida Butsu.
So I can state that I
was misled by Rev. Kubose saying hongan
was “the will to live.” Hongan is not
about destructively busting through the concrete as an urban dandelion. Hongan is the aspiration to recognize
the organic life of the minerals in the concrete and to embrace their life as
being as dignified as the flower. To hear and say Namu Amida Butsu is to
recognize my connection to all lives, how much they have helped me, along with
how much I’ve harmed them in my selfish pursuit of personal peace.
Part Two: Right Action
Here I also want to
explain my recent break with Dr. Haneda, who I will always consider my
important teacher. From him I learned Amitayus means all lives uncountable (mu-ryō) of past, present and future. But
for me it is important to encounter some of these many lives, not just in
Buddhism study groups and at Japanese American temples, but in the world that
includes the ill and injured, the financially struggling, the demonized folks
all around us and far away in all directions.
In Q & A sessions,
whenever Dr. Haneda is asked about social justice activity, he answers that it
is all “small compassion,” an individual’s efforts to feel good about oneself.
It is a response I’ve heard often from Japanese scholars and an attitude some
Buddhist Churches of America ministers also subscribe to. But for me, I need concrete
experience of my interconnection with other lives.
Becoming involved in
affordable housing campaigns has introduced me to people I would not encounter
otherwise – men and women who lost their housing because of a sudden job
layoff, divorce, serious accident or illness, and not because they are “too
lazy to work.”
[Calligraphy
of the beginning of Shoshinge displayed at the Kiyozawa Manshi Memorial Museum
in Hekinan, Japan]
Now as I am involved
in supporting efforts to end the genocide in Palestine, I’m learning how
connected I am to people who are on the other side of the world from me. When
we chant at the beginning of Shoshinge, Kimyō
muryōjū nyorai, I know the Tathagata (“thus-come”) includes the uncountable
lives being massacred in Gaza, the West Bank and Lebanon. How can we not honor
them as well as our teachers and relatives of the past?
The second line of
Shoshinge is paying respect to the inconceivable lights (wisdoms) of the
universe – those wisdoms include indigenous wisdoms as well as the insights
expressed in Islam, Judaism and Christianity. It is the height of sectarian
arrogance to think Amitabha (unbounded lights) only refers to Sino-Japanese
Buddhism.
I am grateful that when
the genocidal attacks on Gaza started, the Buddhist Peace Fellowship has
offered Refuge Circles on Zoom, four days a week to give us a moment of calm to
process our grief and outrage. In September they asked me to conduct two
sessions. In the first session I explained a lot about Pure Land Buddhism
(which not many BPF members are aware of) but in the second session as our
shared contemplation, I read from the second chapter of Kyogyoshinsho, the
series of verses where Shinran praises hongan.
(Collected Works of Shinran, pages
66-67).
The Vow of Compassion is like vast space, for all its excellent virtues are
broad and boundless. …
It is like the great earth, for it sustains the birth of all beings.
It is like the great waters, for it washes away the scum of blind passions
[the selfish greed of oneself and others that causes sufferings].
It is like the great fire, for it burns the firewood of all [one-sided]
views.
It is like the great wind, for it goes everywhere in the world and is
without hindrances.
That is just a bit of
Shinran’s description of hongan, the
innermost aspiration to move us into caring and into action as part of this
interconnected reality of all lives.